I am not perfect. I have come to this position in life having made plenty mistakes and learning the lesson from them. That is the goal of course of these lessons.
King of Sorrow the song by Sade came into my life when I thought I was finally winning. I had finally moved into my house, my children had their own rooms and furniture in their rooms and it was our first Christmas in the new house. It was 9 am and I was in my kitchen working on Christmas dinner and my son was in the front room playing Michael Jackson the Experience on his Xbox 360. I can't tell you what I asked him or what his reply was other than it was a smart ass answer. I was at first going to let it slide being that it was Christmas but then the voice of precedent yelled - if you allow it to go unanswered today, it will happen again. The voice I imagine my mother would have used in this instance came out and told him to turn off the electronics and go to his room. He did so without fuss,and so I turned back to preparing dinner. However not one minute later, I heard this awful noise. I thought my son had lost his mind and was tearing up his room but I now know it was the sound of my brick posts being destroyed. The noise was loud and horrible and made me turn around just in time to see an SUV run into back wall of my front room.
In hindsight, how thankful I am for the gift of precedent setting. The SUV bumper sat 1 foot past where my son was dancing and had punctured my TV. He would have surely died. However with that year being a year of moving 3 steps forward only to be pushed two steps back this was a lose in my sight initially. Despite the positive aspects of what this "accident" could have brought to our family, I could not see above the negative.
* we had been homeless for a year - we finally had a space of our own
* because of my ex-husband's legal matters, I almost lost this house
* we had only been living there 3 months before this happened
I like many utilize song to ease my suffering. - I was sunk and my song of choice? King of Sorrow by Sade. I was very familiar with the law of attraction at that point but it never dawned on me that I was in fact initiating the law when I sang. Let's review or summarize for those unfamiliar with the Law of Attraction - in simple terms for this subject -
Your thoughts can become things especially when you put strong emotions behind them.
If you want to know what you are attracting to yourself? Gauge your feelings. So what was I bringing into existence in my life - let's see...
Lyrics to King of Sorrow
I'm crying everyone's tears And there inside our private war I died the night before And all of these remnants of joy and disaster What am I suppose to do
I would BELT out that first line because that is what I felt.... I am crying everyone's tears. I felt that lyric so deep in my spirit that it was no wonder that all that came with this wreck on my house felt like a war.
I want to cook you a soup that warms your soul But nothing would change, nothing would change at all It's just a day that brings it all about Just another day and nothing's any good
And I felt this in my spirit - nothing was going to change, everything was just a masquerade of life secretly slipping me the middle finger.
The DJ's playing the same song I have so much to do I have to carry on I wonder if this grief will ever let me go I feel like I am the king of sorrow, yeah The king of sorrow
So what was happening was that I could not see the good or the opportunities because I felt targeted, beat up on and abused as if nothing would ever go right... However I was creating this cycle of disrupting situations because unknowingly I had initiated Law of Attraction and it was working. I was wailing about how awful my life was and increasing the likelihood that it would. Basically, I was asking for it to go wrong. Yes that sounds simple and cliche but how many of us find that one song that sums up our situation (romantic or otherwise) and we play it in rotation back to back and pour our tears, our energy into it and we feel it with every fiber or our being. That is a lot of energy. We are instead setting ourselves up for more of what we don't want.
The answer is - We must choose music that shifts that vibration not intensifies it.
I am a fan of being mindful of all of our emotions and so sometimes songs like King of Sorrow could possibly be utilized to help acknowledge the sadness but once it is acknowledged you can simmer in it or shift... I hope you shift.
